Thursday, April 26, 2012

I'm Scared

I'm scared. I really am!  I finally gave in and registered for the Lake Minnetonka Half marathon next weekend. I know I don't have really any reason to be scared about this race. It's just a race just like any other race I've done this year. It's just so far!

I'm scared that I am doing this race all on my own! No one is running this race with me. Now, I understand I've done most of my training since my 10k by myself, but am I going to be able to keep myself motivated for 13.1 miles in 10 days?! I have no idea! I know I'll have my family there to cheer me on but it's not the same as having someone right next to me pushing me to keep going and to keep the pace up.

I'm scared about being so slow.  The part that scares me about this the most is that they are going to run out of water or Gatorade (or whatever) before I get to the water/aid stations. Then I'm just not going to make it through the race because I'll be so dehydrated. I dont know! I wasn't planning on running with my own water on this race. When I volunteered for Race for the Cure last year, the water station I was helping near ran out of water! What if that happens? That was only a 5k distance. I'm also scared they are going to start breaking down the finish line before I get there. How embarrassing!

I'm scared of the hills! Most of my running has been on the treadmill and trail running. The trails around here are pretty dang flat.  The only hill work I do is running up the hill in my neighborhood since my house is on the highest point in the area. Is that enough?! The reviews I see of this race say it has lots of rolling hills. Ugh! What have I gotten myself into?

I'm scared of not having my music with me when I run. I train with my iPhone but every race I've ever run I did not wear my headphones with music. I've been told to stay away from this anyway. So I plan on just enjoying nature and listening to my body and my feet hitting the pavement. 

I wish I was as confident as Ann! I know I've done the training. But some weeks, I didn't do all the training runs. Instead of 4 runs a week, I averaged 3 runs per week but always making sure I had gotten that long weekend run completed.  I am supposed to do a 12 mile run this weekend but then I looked at a half marathon training and they have it set up for 10 miles this weekend. Which one should I do? I think I would feel more confident knowing I could do 12 miles this weekend. AAAHHH!

I have a 3 mile run tomorrow after work and then my long run this weekend. I'm just going to keep plugging away at the miles and then I am going to get over being scared and just put one foot infront of the other. Let's see how I feel this time next week.


  1. Is the race on Sat or Sun next weekend? Maybe I could run it with you?! You will do great. You have done 10 on the treadmill, you can do 13.1 on the road. I suggest music...but only use one ear phone. I keep the music there but when I need it, I can hear it. To quote your friends, "Run Don't Stop.". I have done every half carrying a water bottle. It is kinda like a security blanket for me during the race.

  2. Oh thanks Kim! You run sooo much faster than I do. The race is next Sunday. 10 days from today. Eeek!

  3. Alright, you can totally do this. Just relax, deep breath. You can't go back and change any of your past days or runs, but you CAN make a commitment to yourself (and to the race) to have the best next 9 days possible - clean eating, good training, stretching, icing and CHILLING OUT. (easier said than done, I know.) Amy - you ARE a runner and you are going to KILL this race!!!