Today was the first day of October Unprocessed. I did have some Cheerios for breakfast, which are processed. Oh and cottage cheese for lunch to dip my carrots in. It's better for me than ranch dressing. Ugh! Did I fail at October Unprocessed already!?!?! Nope, I don't think so! I overcame a lot of cravings today. I actually felt a twinge of jealousy as I watched people park at the Subway across the street. I sat in the break room, ate my ham roll ups, carrots, cottage cheese, water, and raspberries. I spent about 10 minutes getting over the fact that my favorite honey wheat pretzels were sitting on the counter, thanks to a coworker. After the craving passed, I was fine.
A couple of mantras kept rippling through my thoughts:
1. "Food is fuel, food is fuel, food is fuel. I don't need those pretzels to survive."
2. "I really really really really really really want this lifestyle change."
By the end of my lunch, I didn't glance back at the pretzels. When I got hungry mid-afternoon, I reached for the box of raisins I brought in my lunch bag. They were just enough to cover my tummy for another few hours until dinner.
You know, I didn't hit that midday slump I usually have. It was great. I was tired. I think I may be coming down with something but I wasn't on that sugar low like usual. I certainly was feeling my emotions. Work was stressful today but I just worked through it and when I felt like it was getting to be a lot, instead of going back to munch on food, I just socialized with my coworkers. I also drank a ton of water today. Here's to tomorrow!
So, anyway, my second goal is to lose 30 pounds by just after Christmas. This makes me nervous because I'm not really sure I can do it. I changed my goals over at MyFitnessPal to reflect the weight loss. It is calling to consume 1600 calories a day. Sheesh! I struggled to get 1200 calories today. I think I'm going to have to eat the more meals each day.
The thing is that I have done it before. Five years ago I was really paying attention to what I was eating for the month of March and I lost 10 lbs in that one month! I was so excited...so excited that I stopped eating healthy! I think I treated myself or something and got so off track. I am using this October challenge to refocus my brain.
Soon after Pat and I got married, everyone said the wedding stress would make me forget to eat and I would lose that extra weight. Please! Have you ever met a binge eater? Stress sends me over the eating edge. I think of all those feelings that pass over my brain when I'm stressed. There's excitement, anxiety, hunger (or what I think is hunger), relief when I give in. I need to find another way to deal with my stress, especially at work. While the weather is still nice I plan on going for walks during the workday just to get away. I know this has helped me in the past and gets me away from the snacking temptations at work.
So, here's to 30 lbs!